The Beginning

Well, Hello new blog.

I am starting you for me. My other blog was out of control and filled with to much crap. Now this is a blog to write out my new journey. One where I will start to find out who i am again and track it all down.
With very few friends that I enjoy talking to and even less that I feel I can be just plain honest with I figured i may give this a try again.

So lets begin.

I'm 25 and have just moved back home with my parents. Whom i have spent the last 8 years trying to show i can be independent. Needless to say it is a bit of an ego killer. BUT I understand the reasons for why i need to be here. You on the other hand don't, but I don't need to fill you in yet.
I grew up here. But moved out a long time ago. Down to the "City". A phrase used here to describe anything that isn't here. I didn't realize how much i had grown used to the comforts and things of living somewhere where stores are open past 6 and there is always something to do if you want to drive.
Last night was my first night and at 9:00 my cold that i have ( which was just an added bonus to the shit hole i'm going through right now) was REALLY getting to me and i thought to myself i should drive out to shoppers and get something so i can sleep. Instantly as i looked out our large sliding glass windows and only saw pitch black, no lights at all folks not even street lamps just the sky, and trees I remembered, there isn't a drug store open here. The closest one would be an hour away, which can be said for most things around here.
Then this morning I wake up and no one is home. I have no idea what to do with myself. I hadn't really thought all this through past packup and go away from all these memories and pain. I felt lost and empty. But being lost is the start of finding something right. If I knew where it was, i wouldn't be here. So feeling very out of place, I picked up the phone to call my mom and see what i should do today. As i went to dial I rememberd there is only six digits up here. No area codes. I really am in the middle of no where.
But this is where it is all going to start and THIS is where I am going to ramble on and on with no care for grammer or being witty. Just talking what I think.

Welcome