Things have been weird lately. I have been doing well job, money and so on is better then usual. I guess I just have to think at what cost. Before I couldn’t go out because I have no money, now i have money but not time.
If I got engaged today, I’m not really sure who I would want for me at my wedding, and not sure there is anyone I could ask to be a bridesmaid.
I have one or two girls who I am still on good terms with only we haven’t hung out in a year. But no one who knows me, who could give a speech at my wedding, who could assist me through the process, throw me a killer bachelorette. I have no one.
It is a sad and lonely thought, even when you have love, to not have anyone outside of it can make you feel alienated.
I just don’t mesh well with others over a long period of time.
I can’t make real friends.
